Is it getting hard?

Is it getting hard yet? That’s a great question, isn’t it? Do you have an answer? Have you rubbed up against the truth long enough to start asking yourself, “Why is this getting harder instead of easier?”

If we’re on the right path, if we’re living a life of purpose, living the life we were meant to live, is that when it starts getting easier? I hope so. I also hope that I’m on my way, that I’ve finally figured out that the reason it seems to be getting harder and harder to fake my way through the corporate life is because I was never meant for it.

Is it all going to start getting easier? P-p-please, Universe! Guide us all. And, if you can, give me a little extra attention. Not because I’m special, but because, apparently, I’m special.

Who’n the fuck else takes as long as I have towards making a life change? Okay, most of us take a bit of time. Change is scary. But is everyone else as fit to be tied as I am? A little help? Tether me now before I’m lost. Seriously, I think I’ve moved away from being a panicky scaredy cat to an angry little ball of hiss.

Is that an improvement?

BTW, turns out I won’t have to share a room with my co-worker (manager?) when I travel for work next week. I’m still being asked to give up four nights of my life in a hotel room after bringing approximately 10 people up to speed on how their jobs have changed when many more of their counter parts have just been canned, but that’s pretty much the point I am making. If I don’t feel excited about what I am being asked to do, if this choice is not of my making, if this feels difficult instead of easy, there’s a chance I’m not on the right path.

Universe? Are you listening? If you are, could you also help me navigate the financial blow as I transition? Oh, and if there are any additional tips you could throw my way on how to get reasonable private healthcare when you have some pre-existing conditions and a less than desirable family health history, that’d be super.